ugh new day…new diet…new will power….i love you Nate…thanks for helping me be a better person….ill be skinny and pretty just for you!!!
schools gonna start…i have fasted but i have failed.. i have new cuts on my back and a new word on my thigh..no body even notices them anymore. ive turned to pills. they get me sick..thats good..sick = not wanting to eat..treadmill broke today…now what..i cant go outside..i cant leave the safeness of my room..no food..just water..inspirational quotes..a picture of him..the boy i need…the boy i love…hes gonna leave i can feel it…so i will feel hunger..i will eat the hunger pains instead of the food..once on the lips forever on the hips…im gonna pop some pills so ill get high…then i wont eat…its all part of the plan…2 weeks and 30 pounds to get rid of…can i do this?..can i survive?? i have to. i have to. i need to. i need to. i will. i will. i will. thank god for brina and her voice of support…thank god for Ana always forgiving me..always helping me forword…i will concure…i will win..i will make Ana proud.
i really need someone to tell me i can do this…he said he would die today…maybe if i was skinnier i could make him happy…then i wouldnt be embarrest when he would touch me..that would make him happy right?? so how do i lose weight? i need an ana buddy…please someone text me or email or something…i need help!!! anyone?





